Tuesday, 13 August 2013

Being a WAHM is crazy

Life has been busy.

I haven't had much time to blog, let alone shower sometimes. Okay, it's not that bad. Well, maybe it was for a few days there but I am back into my daily showering habit now.

My last post was about starting my new business and it has been crazy. I am entering into this new world of a WAHM (Working At Home Mum). I love it but I feel like my mind is constantly racing. Two weeks ago I almost gave up. I just felt so overwhelmed and wondered why I was doing this to myself. I am already someone who gets anxious and stressed easily, why add to it?

My kids have also been driving me a bit insane. Miss Almost-Four (Issy) has completely dropped her day sleep and Mr Just-Turned-One (Fin) has decided he should also cut down sleeping to just one very short day sleep. So short, that today it was just thirty minutes.

Kids, this is not helping your mum start her new business!!

So, I've had to do most of my work at night and find a way to work around them during the day time. This means multi-tasking. A LOT. Research shows, you're better off focusing on one thing at a time then trying to do many things at once. Oops.

This is me for example...

Check email, boil kettle, sweep floor, see runny nose, find tissue box, pour cuppa, get biscuit for Miss Almost Four, wipe nose, wipe a bum, wash hands, respond to email, finish sweeping the floor. Find Mr Just-Turned-One with his hands in the toilet. Clean his hands, close the door. Finally reply to email. Break up fight between kids. Send Miss Almost Four to time out. Take a sip from the cup of tea. Drag Mr Just-Turned-One away from the gas heater and TV for the hundredth time that day. Someone knocks on door. Give parcel to customer. Update database. Weigh a number of items that need postage. Remember Miss Almost-Four is in time out. Have a chat and apology is accepted. Put on a load of washing. Pick up stray undies and crumbs on the floor. Finish sweeping the floor. Send email with postage estimation to a customer. Take the kids outside to play. Take photos of the kids. Take photos of my products I am selling. Jump on the trampoline with the kids. Answer phone call while on the trampoline. Rush to the toilet with the kids in tow. Remind myself that I can't jump as high anymore.  Sigh.

She makes multitasking look so easy!

Right now I feel like I am just spinning around and around in circles. I need time to myself desperately. Not just to work but just to be still...still...what is that?

Even while I've been writing this post I've been simultaneously checking my Facebook business page, negotiating a sale on five vintage suitcases, emailing a supplier and texting a friend.

I don't even know how to relax right now. But I feel like I am slowly, slowly getting a hang of it. Learning how to switch off from work is hard. But it's possible. The best thing I've found is to get out of the house and leave my phone in the car or at home. I take the kids to the park and I can be away from everything that distracts me. When I am at home all I can think about is everything that needs to be done.

It's now 10.20pm. I could keep writing but I think I will make a wise choice to go to bed.

But not before I check my email while cleaning my teeth, while making a cuppa, while locking the backdoor, while writing a mental 'to-do' list for tomorrow.